Day 24- 3 in the a.m. and 2 in the pm ---5 loperamide 2mg pills.
Another yucky, sicky day. I am having a lot of stomach pain, nausea and lack of appetite.
Took a lot just to get a shower today and move around. I need to go to a meeting but I just feel
sick. I hope this lets up. I don't think its any worse than yesterday. Maybe a little milder.
Just been in and out of bed, waiting and deciding whether to jump. I am sorry, but not feeling too
gbread added 401 Minutes and 47 Seconds later...
Okay - Quick ending to the day.
Got to feeling MUCH better after dinner and taking clonidine. Went to a meeting and out to dinner with
20 people afterwards. Man, I felt the power in that room. You could just feel the love and several
people shared some real gut-level honesty. I know it sounds crazy but WOW.
Then at dinner, there was more honest talking and laughing and I mean "laughing until you cry" laughing.
So, good stuff. It's so good to be ALIVE. It's so good to be sober and drug-free.
I just got home and wanted to add to anyone reading that like RoadDoggy says, it can change minute to minute, hour to hour sometimes in this loperamide withdrawal. A rollercoaster for damn sure.
But I have to thank God for the good times, especially when the bad (earlier today) and yesterday were so
dark. I mean dark! I was getting panicky and totally afraid of god-knows-what. I am talking about
staying in bed all day darkness. Anyways, dodged another bullet!! YEY!!
Got out of myself, went OUT of the house and made myself socialize and BAM, the magic happened.
I am right back in the swing of life. Who knows, tomorrow may be total crap again, OR it could be
sunshine fairies and unicorns. We shall see.
Much love and hugs, GBread