Loperamide addiction withdrawal journey need support - Part 34

By gbread · Apr 16, 2015 · ·
  1. Day 24- 3 in the a.m. and 2 in the pm ---5 loperamide 2mg pills.

    Another yucky, sicky day. I am having a lot of stomach pain, nausea and lack of appetite.

    Took a lot just to get a shower today and move around. I need to go to a meeting but I just feel
    sick. I hope this lets up. I don't think its any worse than yesterday. Maybe a little milder.

    Just been in and out of bed, waiting and deciding whether to jump. I am sorry, but not feeling too
    chatty today.

    Muchlove, GB

    gbread added 401 Minutes and 47 Seconds later...

    Okay - Quick ending to the day.

    Got to feeling MUCH better after dinner and taking clonidine. Went to a meeting and out to dinner with
    20 people afterwards. Man, I felt the power in that room. You could just feel the love and several
    people shared some real gut-level honesty. I know it sounds crazy but WOW.

    Then at dinner, there was more honest talking and laughing and I mean "laughing until you cry" laughing.
    So, good stuff. It's so good to be ALIVE. It's so good to be sober and drug-free.

    I just got home and wanted to add to anyone reading that like RoadDoggy says, it can change minute to minute, hour to hour sometimes in this loperamide withdrawal. A rollercoaster for damn sure.

    But I have to thank God for the good times, especially when the bad (earlier today) and yesterday were so
    dark. I mean dark! I was getting panicky and totally afraid of god-knows-what. I am talking about
    staying in bed all day darkness. Anyways, dodged another bullet!! YEY!!

    Got out of myself, went OUT of the house and made myself socialize and BAM, the magic happened.
    I am right back in the swing of life. Who knows, tomorrow may be total crap again, OR it could be
    sunshine fairies and unicorns. We shall see.

    Much love and hugs, GBread:)

Comments

  1. Kitts
    That's interesting that you managed to turn your mood around G, well done. Your post is the third time this week I've had someone talking about getting outside of yourself to feel better. For so long we rely on someTHING to make us feel good: a pill, a powder, a liquid, we forget how to do it other ways. A "healthy" life is one with a feeling of well-being, feeling at peace. Many elements have to work together to make us feel that way, but they are simple elements. And yet so hard to achieve when we are feeling down on the ground.

    I don't know where I'm going with this, I think I'm in WaffleTown. But just reading about how you got yourself up out of your depression and went out and had food and companionship with good friends is inspring. You're doing good, girl! Keep on keeping on. Hugs, Kitts.
  2. Jungledog
    Proud of you! I second Kitts. Honestly hope that today brings fairies and unicorns topped with powdered sugar and of course sunshine!!!! You are kicking ass my friend. Just fight for your happiness. It does come.
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