Increasing the pills by one pill: It just (seems to)eases the mental and physical discomfort by a fraction. It may also be psychological, Kitts. I cannot take anything else. A lot of people take benzos and other addictive medications. Except for kratom, I just think it's trading one for the other. For me only.
I'm just trying to steer away from anything addictive. It may get too difficult. I know that.
But this loperamide is long long long acting and lingering.
So psychologically, it is my only relief (from a chemical). I don't even know if 1 pill helps.
I even wonder if I'll just stay on and linger at 2 pills a day for 6 months when I get there. I may jump off sooner. I just don't know. Do you relate to this? Does ANYONE?
Kitts, I get SO anxious and sad and lonely coming off of this loperamide. Ive never experienced anything like it, to be honest. Ive come off a lot of things. This one is baffling, Kitts. It plays with your mind. I'm sure some opiates are similar. Ive just never tried them and had to quit them(except oxycodone). And honestly, I was on such a low dose of oxycodone, I didn't have a hard time weaning off to be honest.
I never went above my prescribed amount- maybe once or twice- but for the most part I kept it steady. When it was time to wean off., I felt nothing like this. Maybe I'm just stretching out and prolonging something that should go quicker. I have no idea.
I just know that this drug seems a hell of a lot stronger and has more side effects, withdrawals that last and last and linger and linger. Slightly, yes. Doable? Absolutely. I guess I am a wimp when it comes to any discomfort. Ive got to buck up and get over it, huh?
On enjoying activities: I guess I could try to pick one thing. It's hard when you feel little joy in anything. But maybe if I DO the actions then the feelings and interest will follow. It has to or I am so screwed, Kitts.
It has GOT to get better. I feel so alone.
Anyways Much love and hugs to you and thank you as always for reaching out. It's like a light in the dark abyss- GBread