CC, I used to live in San Diego and miss the amazing weather. Now in Georgia and it's hot, rainy and muggy. But I want to start walking again. I really do. My head tells me that people will be watching and judging me. I'm not overweight at all, I just feel self-conscious. I know it sounds mental but Ive been so isolated using loperamide and before when I took oxycodone, then had surgery. I feel like Im out of the 'loop' so to speak.
It seems I am playing catch up as I watch friends in their jobs, marriages and kids. I have none of that but hope to build something now that I'm getting well. I want to join in life again. Meetings help me so much, since we are all at different stages of the 'getting out' and on with life after drugs and alcohol. I find so much compassion and understanding, plus practical advice from those like you who actually DID it.
I don't feel less than or better than anyone and finally feel a part of something. Plus my spirituality is helping me heal as it is a restorative to be sure.
Don't feel bad about trashing your health, and I see you've moved past that emotion pretty much. It is a learning experience, huh? It makes you so much more grateful for your health and well-being now.
Thanks for the feedback regarding the GI tract and bowel issues. That's the hardest to talk about for me! But it so important to understand I am not alone and it's normal to have problems. Did you have any ulcers or severe pain or was it mild and intermittent? Anyways, I am glad that it does get better.
Will report later. Godspeed!
Much love and hugs to you and all,