Gosh Ellen, it does make me tear up when I think about how far I've come since last November. All the months (4-5 maybe?) I was chewing up loperamide. I didn't know it was dangerous. I could've died! And to think it all came to a head one night when I had a panic attack. And then read Mad Margaret's blog. Would have never even known. Could've been lost to loperamide EVIL little PILL!!!!!
So here I am, almost out of the woods. And what a feeling. Such gratitude and wonder and awe. Cannot believe it. Don't want to jinx it though...Ive still got a few weeks maybe. We'll see.
You get to 15, then 12 and 10 before you know it. After that, it's just slow going, but so much easier than cold turkey!! I am praying for your success as well. You are such a dear. Anytime you need it, message me or post and I will try to respond and help in any way I can. It makes me feel good to have something to give, for sure. Helping each other IS what makes it work. For sure.
And dating. There is a really nice man who is 10 years older than me. I just want to be healthy and whole before date anyone. Whoever he is He wont know what hit him! haha. Right now, though I can't really date. I mean, if I'm yawning and sneezing and have diarrhea. Kind of ruins the romantic mood, Huh? hahaha. Plus this guy is like a brother as Ive known him in the program for years. Not my type. But I know he probably likes me.
Yeah, not too sexy!!!!!! Plus I want to be healthy first. Wouldn't be fair to him, anyone or me.
Much love and cant wait to see us win out!! By HIS wounds we ARE healed.