Loperamide Gone Wrong (Possible Journal) - Part 21

By girlondrugs · Feb 23, 2015 · ·
  1. OMG Cielochick I am so proud of you!! I wish you all the best and I hope you will be able to feel very "woohoo" very soon.

    Sigh. I just don't know what to do or how to feel. I just feel stuck. It feels as if everyone's taper or coming off of their DOC went by so fast, and I'm still here. I hate taking these damn things. And every day my mom sees me taking them she'll ask "Still stuck on 18?". It just irks me so much. I constantly have to tell her to leave me alone, I only want to talk to people who know what I'm going through. It's so frustrating, but I have to push through it.

    I ended up telling my boyfriend what's going on about a month ago, and he was so supportive. Just wish some other ppl were like that. Instead of looking at me funny.

    My kava powder came last week. Desperately trying to find a filter or cheesecloth to use to knead the powder. I really want to drop my dosage considerably during my spring break ( March 2-10)

    So happy to see you are out of detox and off that damn valium! Im so proud of you as well. This just gives me so much fucking hope. Glad to see that you're back and doing well.

    I need to come on more often, school is just so hectic. This was really like my diary, my safe haven. I think I'm going to try to come on daily again. I want to be another success story. I WILL be another success story.

    Well off I go. I have been late to my theater class for a while now, and I've been feeling very bad about it. (Seeing that I live 5 min from the school). I apologized to my teacher and made a promise that for the remainder of the term I will be early or on time. And i never break my promises.

    Talk to you guys later!

    GFOD (Girl Formerly On Drugs)


  1. cielochick
    I checked one last time cuz I got some emails from DF. Try 17.5 twice a day--the pills are scored usually. No shame in going down by half a pill-- I did it at times. I generally find cheese cloth in supermarkets. You can tell mom you are going down. cc
  2. girlondrugs
    I guess I could go down half a pill. And the next time I go to Walmart I will check to see if they have some.

    I'm at school right now. I made it to class 10 min early today. I felt good

    Hope everyone is doing well!

  3. cielochick
    Hi GFOD,

    If you do the "math", you're doing pretty good I think. It took me 7 weeks to go from 40 pills a day to 8 to jump. And I would say, I'm only about 70% there physically. Still definitely withdrawing and trying not to be too irked with myself cuz that's so counterproductive.

    You have taken 3 weeks (start date 1/30) to go from 60-72 pills a day average to 50 pills to 36 pills.
    That's pretty darn good and I for one am proud of you.

    This isn't fun or fast for anyone (except super-Road Doggy who bolted at a fairly high dose, still amazes me). Everyone has taken several weeks to several months.

    Hang in there, take a wee bit off even if it means splitting the blankety-blank pill. And of course, if you really can't tolerate symptoms, gabapentin or clonidine may smooth the way.

    You got this. You just have to be more of a tortoise race than a hare. :) CC
  4. Roaddoggy
    Ya, for sure. This is a slow process, even for me. LOL. But slowly you will begin to feel better. Its really the waiting, that's the hardest part.

    Also I agree that Gabapentin, and or Clonidine, could help.

    GFOD, you really seem to be coming along well. I just wanted to stop in, and see how you are doing. I'm glad to hear, your able to function. Even saying you feel good, it awesome to hear.

    Keep up the hard work. Wishing you the very best. Much love Roaddog....
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