Thank you guys soooooo much!! Like you guys really don't know how much I appreciate your input. My mom knows but she's kind of a hard ass (which I need an am grateful for) but she just doesn't get it
You know what scratch that, I'm pretty sure she does get it because she was once an addict, but it seems like she just pushes it to the back of her head and wont talk about it or even acknowledge it like I don't know it happened. I didn't see her for 3 years because of her problem. She knows what withdrawals are and how hard they are, I guess she wants me to be like her and push through and fight. I wish I was that tough. Well maybe I am, I just haven't recognized it yet. Sigh.
Anyway I'm awaiting my 7pm taper to begin so I'm about to eat and have a cup of kava tea. I bought the yogi brand and I read I have to steep at least 2 tea bags so that is what I will try. I will report back later. thanks again you guys