Thanks RD for stopping in. Really appreciate it. I hope Nefret is doing well, too, of course.
Today is day 43 off of loperamide for me. I can tell I'm starting to feel better underneath the kratom effects. I still have restless legs in the mornings, but I feel less out of it and "sickly" if that makes sense. I stopped taking Zoloft two days ago... I think it was making my depression way worse. It was as if it removed the small bits of color in my day, leaving me flat all around and more hopeless. It was good for me to test it out, though. I'm feeling better these last two days, for sure.
I'm starting to taper back on kratom slowly. It's an interesting substance. I notice much more positive effects when I take only about 2g at a time max. If I take more, it flattens me out and sedates me enough to take the spring out of my step. Less is more with kratom, I think.
I'm down to about 12g per day right now. I only take 3 capsules at a time, and do that about every 3 hours that I'm awake. The anxiety has been hard to deal with at time, so I've been taking the hydroxyzine (Vistaril) 3-4 times per day and it helps tremendously.
I'm hoping that by the time I hit 60 days I'm able to be at about 8-10g per day of kratom without being too uncomfortable. It's hard not know how bad I would feel if I quit kratom completely right now. I wish I could test it out just to see where I'm at underneath it all.
Much love and thanks,