Thank you so much Road and Jungle. I really appreciate the kind words and support. I know I'm not alone in beating myself up for getting myself into this mess, and it helps greatly to know I'm not alone in the journey, period. Hats off to both of you for getting clean and facing all of this with such strength. It's inspiring and tells me my path is indeed almost over with this stuff.
Road - you are completely right about kratom likely being a walk in the park compared to loperamide. I still remember that deep, buzzing restlessness that I had for so long and couldn't bare the thought of living with for 3 months. I still think about how unreal it is that you jumped off of it. And that you did us all such a great service by sharing your experiences almost every day. Thank you. So much.
Jungle - I'm so incredibly happy for you that you never got in too deep with loperamide!! 50 pills per day isn't small, either. Did you jump right to kratom? I should read your thread and see how you did this. I'm impressed. Would love to know what your switch to kratom was like and if you had symptoms underneath, etc. Congrats on the kratom taper!! Kratom is a wonderful plant for situations like ours. I wish I had started it back when I was trying to find a way off of fentanyl!
Thank you both. And best wishes on both of your journies to freedom!!
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Oh, I also wanted to add that I would consider jumping from Kratom if I could take the time off of work and be there for my kids. Tapering over the next month will hopefully keep me more functional and able to participate in the holidays with my family.
Road - When you got down to 7 grams per day of kratom, what were your withdrawal symptoms? I know you were on it a bit longer than I have been. I started taking 5 to 15mg hydrocodone everyday while I was battling my crazy ulcers a few weeks ago, so I finally stopped hydro 4 days ago and am re-stabilizing on my 15 capsules of kratom before dropping that. I feel fine now that I've simplified off of hydro again, so tomorrow will be a drop to 14. I'm going to drop by 1 every 3 days and see how it goes. I just don't want to drop too fast and backtrack into higher doses to start feeling better. I would kick myself way too hard for that.