Multiple drug addiction withdrawal journal - mostly opiates - Part 3

By lkt004 · Apr 23, 2015 · ·
  1. Well that was certainly a dark post, my apologies, shouldn't air that here.

    Found out i'll be going in for 3 rounds of surgery, all very painful with long recoveries involving pain killers (not if i can help it to be honest), so trying to adjust my thinking to not using them recreationally but only enough to take the pain away.

    For the first time in a long time i only have 1 GP, this was a major milestone for me, i had medical records sent to her from 17 different doctors offices/ER/psychiatric facilities. Handed over all my old scripts and will only be seeing this GP and my surgeon. Today marks 6 weeks since i tried to take my life with an overdose, 42 days, 42 days since i have taken drugs to avoid reality. My daugher and wife have kept me going, i am finding this part of my recovery the hardest, the physical withdrawals were easy, and done within a safe environment in a psychiatric facility.

    Adjusting to life sober is taking it's toll mentally and emotionally, especially at work, i have gone back to a job that pays slightly less than before but far less stress, going from running at 150% on uppers and then downers at night it's a seriously boring adjustment.

    Hopefully once i go back to school after dropping out of all bar 1 of my courses and hopefully get to see how i go at a normal pace.

Comments

  1. Jungledog
    Take things one day at a time. Getting your head straight is the hardest part. Remember you just thought you were running at 150% but in reality you were mostly checked out and were not performing anywhere where you thought you were. It was all false. In the past 5 months off oxycodone, my life is so much better. Initially it just felt flat. But as my emotions returned, as did my intellect, I have been promoted, I am socializing with friends again and well it is like my old life returned!!!

    Love to you!!
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