Wow!!! 10 days.
I couldn't of ever envisioned being 10 days clean a month ago. I'm learning that the body is truly an amazing thing. People search life times trying to understand the miracle of the human body.
I have taken the advice and decided not to go on an anti depressant. I appreciate the advice, you are correct, I am still healing. These past two days I've seen a huge improvement. I think just planning my day with events help. I find myself joking and smiling again. Today I spent half my day at the casino!! Had a blast, and the other half cleaning my house.
But what I'm finding strange is, when I enjoy things, like the casino or after a good meal, I get bad cravings. They are definitely in my control. Just really annoying. I do miss getting high, but being clean is more important to me, and my family.
next week I have an appointment to see a psychologist. I'm kinda feeling weird about it especially at 170 bucks an hour!!! Has anyone found this form of treatment beneficial? My doc is also try to get me a psychiatrist, which wouldn't cost me anything.
Further to this, I think I'm finally ready to attempt running again. I will give it a go tomorrow. More updates to follow