My Hydrocodone Withdrawal and Recovery Journal - Part 43

By hydrofibro · Feb 14, 2015 · ·
  1. I have found afternoons to be when craving creeps in that is also when I get really fatigued so going for a walk or some crap isn't feasible at that time and tv makes it worse. I'm going to get the stuff to make a protein shake at around 2pm. I'm going to continue juicing. Mad cravings for salt and chocolate and that's also a no no.
    On that note, I feel fantastic that I kicked the cravings butt yesterday. I so excited. I think about taking pills very little until the craving monster hits. Here's the thing, if you wait it out IT PASSES.
    Dumb thing is I'm still sneezing, it had slowed but last 2 days it has been horrid. I'm going to get some sinus pills got post nasal drip.
    I wake up in the morning and feel hope and excitement for the day. It's been years since I did that. I'm nostalgic. I remember being a little girl and waking to the smell of fresh cut crass and hearing lawn mowers going and feeling the sun come through the window. I'd get that happy feeling in my chest about the day. THAT IS HOW IM WAKING UP! It makes me cry. I'm so thankful to God because I know it is prayer that has brought me this far. I'm praying for the people on drug forums. Especially those on methadone. I know the withdrawal is brutal and long. People hear have done in though. I don't think it's a good thing to chase a taper so long and hope you have no withdrawal. At some point you are going to have to bite the bullet. Fight the war!! Get the metal, it passes!! I will be clean 6 weeks tues.
    I am sleeping but at 6 am my body is up no matter what time I went to sleep so I'm still averaging 6-7 hrs a night. I took nothing for sleep last night. The stomach problem is getting better. I still have diarreah (we all get it so...) but it's not all day I take nothing for it now. I'm down from my soma from 3 a day to 1 a day. Don't know if I'm going to continue taking it it depends on the muscle spasms in my back. Any way long post but thought I'd catch up. God Bless.

Comments

  1. Kitts
    Wow I really relate to this. I am waking up at 6am-ish, wide awake, even if I slept really late. And for the first time this morning I felt really positive and happy when I heard the birds singing and the sounds of morning, and the sun is coming up earlier. I felt like I wanted to go out really early and drive out in the country. Well I didn't, I stayed on DF for a couple of hours and went back to sleep till lunchtime, but the intention was there.

    And I remember, Hydro, last time I felt like this was when I got really low down on my methadone taper. Your post has really resonated with me today and given me a hopeful feeling. :)
    I'm so impressed with how you're managing cravings, all of the cravings - even for unhealthy foods. It's quite amazing to see. Please keep telling us how you're doing. I love posts like this.

    Have a fantastic day,
    Kitts :vibes:
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