Today is a full day 1 into withdrawal for me. Yesterday I only had 40mg first thing in the morning (was able to get 4 pills from a friend) taken at once so that I could get through painting the borders to the entry ways in my house. I'd like to add yesterday as my day 1 as it really felt like it toward the end of the day. I've been using the anti anxiety med ativan as a crutch and I took some kratom too. When I was done doing everything yesterday I had to crawl into the bathtub to bathe and then crawl into the bed to lie down. I slept for a few hours, then woke up around midnight. My sleep was off and on. Today I still have more painting to do, but I feel like I've been hit by a mack truck. I don't know if I'll have the energy to do the housework I have planned.
I'm actually really optimistic this time. Although I feel terrible, I knew this would come with the territory. I'm exited to be taking the first steps toward not letting those pills control the way I feel or what I plan to do in a day. I'm ready to learn how to be happy again, substance free and allow my kids to see their mom with a natural light in my eyes vs the hazy glare. I'll journal tomorrow on here also.
P.S. I forgot to note the dreaded feeling of wanting to cough in the middle of the night. The opiates suppressed my cough reflex whixh is now in full swing. I hate it. But, from past experience it goes away in a week.
I am only using 800 mg Ibuprofin which is doing absolutely nothing. And the ativan is why I think I was able to get some sleep...I will not exceed 2 mg/day for 5 days.