She actually questioned my usage for the first time today like girl didn't I just give you 30 pills friday? Trust me this addiction is going down. I can't live like this anymore. I need to find myself again. I've lost the driven person I used to be because I'm so fukkin numbed up all day. And it seems like it's never enough. If I had an endless supply it would never be enough which is very scary. I've been praying for God to interveen. I know he will. Tomorrow I'll have 3 of the 10 pills I was given today. I'll try again.