The kratom order shipped and I'm battling in my mind why I shouldn't use it. It helps with my existing back pain and enhances my mood. It won't make me a crackhead it's just something I'll need to have in my cabinet until the deeper issue to need a mood enhancer is accessible. I don't know why I'm here in my life, but I'm tired of justifying what I do fir a while. I'll take a lesser evil for now. I know kratom can be abused and I see why, but I'm not ready to cold turkey.