Jungledog, I hear you. Loud and clear =)
I am taking less. I've been reading about kratom on the forum and learned alot. Today I took 10 grams. 5 in the morning and 5 in the afternoon. I want to leave hydro alone this time. I really do. I am finding that it (kratom) does help with pain, rest, and overall comfort. I'm learning that less is more and I do believe it's better than hydro. I had a really bad headache today and I think it's because I cut down on the kratom. I'd love for this to not have to be a daily thing, but right now it is because when I try not to use it, I feel withdrawals. I hate RLS. I never really had that with hydro withdrawal, but I'm noticing it when I try not to use the kratom.
The taste of the kratom is so Fricking horrible to me. That's a good thing and allows me to only take it as needed. Thanks for the kind words. I am doing better. Glad I don't have to worry about my liver all day. Maybe one day I'll actually be substance free!
I would love to learn how go be a normal person again without believing that I need some assistance to feel happy. I think I'm moving in the right direction. I'll keep at it and use kratom as a crutch until I can move if to the back of my medicine cabinet and let it collect dust.