No professional support, feel like my partner is pulling me backwards sometimes.
I see your point about the booze being a red flag. I stopped drinking so much when I started opiates and am returning to booze.
Most of the stupid things I've done have involved alcohol intoxication. Unfortunately I like to mix things up.. depending on how I feel e.g. add this, add that.
Stopped drinking and had a coffee last night as per your advice. Think I'm mentally struggling to deal with my circumstances at the moment and have been using the booze to pass the time..