OK, now I hate this, isolation, W/D symptoms... being straight. Come to realize why I take so many drugs.
Seeing my life for what it really is at the moment. Have some hard choices to make & some ultimatum's to issue.
I have easy out's but I don't want to take them. I can barely utter them out loud. Verging on an epic but well considered outburst that will mean nothing will be the same ever again.
What do I have to do to be ultimately happy without it costing me money just to get out of bed. I've forgotten the last thing I did that bypassed the take drugs switch.
Run out of drugs and start drinking like I'm in a contest, but, inevitably that will run out too. Why can't I just be.