Re: No idea how I got here, feeling a bit lost
Oh it's bad now. I lost my job because of it. We are broke. Xmas was a nightmare yet I could still score everyday. I thought yesterday about injecting. That was it for me.
The positive thing is I made this decision a couple of days ago to stop. Yesterday I admitted my chaos to my workers and came back to my supports. I contacted my friend I use with and told her no more im not scoring anymore (she's good by the way supportive) today is the first time since last August I haven't used in 24 hours. Within an hour of that time passing I have been given the best news. I got offered a job. Job is with a government agency. Job requires crb check. I have past criminal record not spent. I had to admit it. Just now, they called to say they are giving me clearance even with my record. This is it! If I ever needed a sign this is it.
Someone knows my past and is willing to give me a chance despite it!!!
I have to fight, this job could change our lives forever. I like the sound of that.
I AM scared that to get clean last time I had to go to jail for a year. Because I am not planning on going back there. I have to face this head on, no hiding or having too. For me xxx
No idea how I got here, feeling a bit lost :( (but found myself again a happy ending) - Part 12