No idea how I got here, feeling a bit lost :( (but found myself again a happy ending) - Part 15

By cbabycee · Jan 17, 2015 · ·
  1. Re: No idea how I got here, feeling a bit lost :(

    Hey Kitts, yeah I was thinking a boom I have loads on the kindle x. I need my phone on all the time unfortunately, for the kids etc. but I think she got the message she text anyway so Id get it when I turned it on. But like I said she got it.

    Feeling rly tired now yawning but associate that wth wd whatever lol. Gonna get a warm tea and another piece of toast and go try snuggle up and read a little. Time to get off here for sure!!

    Hope you can sleep xxx

    cbabycee added 487 Minutes and 14 Seconds later...

    Ahha cbabycee the craving is strong within you this day.....

    I find if I come write here it goes away a bit. No sleep. That's crap but although it snowed it's nice out so I went for a walk to the shop. My tummy cramps like I'm empty but been forcing food down. Deffo need those expensive buscopan, cheaper than heroin which I will not feel as I have like 32mg+ subs now clinging to the receptors.

    Pfft nothing for it than to plod on then

    cbabycee added 369 Minutes and 20 Seconds later...

    Sent my boyfriend for the buscopan, been out by myself in my car, took my kids to their dads and my daughter to work. Left money and bank card with the boyfriend just incase that little craving reared its head while I was alone.

    Tummy feels better, feel a bit cold but have energy. I think I took too much subs which is why I can't sleep. I have to go get my subs for today and tomorrow soon, dont really feel the need for them yet, may see if I can try to get away with just taking the 2 mg at the chemist. I really have to sleep tonight gonna get some hot chocolate and I've got my buscopan now:)

    Feels ages since I used last not 2 1/2 days. But I think that's a good thing. Today has been worse for craving but knkw with a the subs it would be a waste of time and money and mess me up again mentally so I'm being strong with that.

    I hope everyone's ok :)

Comments

  1. The Cats Dream
    Re: No idea how I got here, feeling a bit lost :(

    Hi C, I just wanted to add my 2 cents and say I'm keeping you in my thoughts for continued strength in resisting temptation.
  2. nursemarie
    Re: No idea how I got here, feeling a bit lost :(

    You are on the rest of our threads and I haven't read yours. I think the suboxone is a good choice. It really cuts that drug seeking behavior. Now lots of us have had to get off suboxone and methadone for various reasons but if it suits your situation why not. It beats the alternative. Hang in there kiddo. Things will get better soon.

    nursemarie added 3 Minutes and 4 Seconds later...

    And...you've been through a lot. You deserve better things in life. It's never too late. Don't let what you've done define who you are.
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