Re: No idea how I got here, feeling a bit lost
Thank you kitts I appreciate youve been here this whole year offering support.
I feel in a good place. Last time I decided to stop I wasn't done, it was more because he had found out. Now I'm done. Really crack is my doc and the heroin walks hand in hand. I get addicted to the heroin and I can take or leave the crack. I'm done with that too. Man we have a dealer who does like 4 bags of either for the price of 2. Good stuff so I'd always get at least 1 stone. I can't remember the last time I used crack now... It has to be a good few weeks ago. I'm glad about that as that used to be my problem.
I was getting to a point where I was considering injexting, shoplifting etc. whoah nah that ain't happening ugh horrible nastiness.
I really hate heroin. It takes so much of ur time. Your life. Your enjoyment of little things and big things. Xmas was shit coz of no money/little drugs. Like I said i couldn't afford presents but I could score everyday. What kind of person is that making me.
My boyfriends brother paid for us to go to a festival hotel drinks everything a few months ago, all I could think was when can I go home and score rather than enjoying a rare weekend away from the kids with my bf.
We all deserve so much more than what heroin or any opiate gives us. As I said in my first post, there is no happy ending with heroin, no unicorns and rainbows!
Yeah I wanted to keep the thread as ine so I can keep track and others can see getting that script isn't the end of your battle. And also show that it can be done because I will do it.
Having a good day even after the shit. Bf still here being sweet cooked a big dinner. I'm so enjoying food today, eating yogurts with mowams lol happy that in the morning it's 4 days since i last used.
I'm gonna sleep tonight. Only 8mls subs today see how it goes. If I need the other 2 ml I'll take it. Took it when I started yawning and shivers.
Just enjoying a hot bubble bath! I hope everyone is well
No idea how I got here, feeling a bit lost :( (but found myself again a happy ending) - Part 20