No idea how I got here, feeling a bit lost :( (but found myself again a happy ending) - Part 24

By cbabycee · Jan 20, 2015 · ·
  1. Re: No idea how I got here, feeling a bit lost :(

    Yeah soso im so disappointed in myself for having to start counting again -after 4 years clean you don't even think about it.

    I photographed the test and sent it to him, he didn't mention it, he did give me a big hug, we haven't really discussed it since the other day. He would never ask me to do tests for him, he's a laid back guy to be fair, im going to keep doing them and keep texting them to him, even though he hasn't asked. Other things im doing like not locking the bathroom door, not spending lots of time in the bedroom alone, showing him what money we have in the bank each day. He would never ask me to do those things. But I will anyway :)

    Work was absolutely brilliant, im gonna love this job so much, the people are great too. My chemist knows Instarted work today and after work I went for my subs and they could see how happy I was. Wow don't you look different!! Happy!! I've got a bloody great chemist!

    I got thru the day no problems but after starting yawning and feeling rough. I have got to keep an eye on that, my dose is levelling off now, I did take 2mg this morning before work as a just in case and ive had 10mg at the chemist. The dose has to be levelling since taking 30mh for a few days at the beginning. Since then ive been taking 10mg most. I'd like to go to 8 in a couple of weeks.

    So awesome day for me. Really hope all my df friends have had a strong day today.

    Also, don't people tell u when they move your thread??? Took me ages to find this lol x


  1. Kitts
    Re: No idea how I got here, feeling a bit lost :(

    Hey Cee, today you started work? Wow congratulations, I didn't realise it was so soon!
    As you're starting to feel a little yawny and you've come down so fast, maybe you could give a little thought to stabilising. Are you on a supervised dose still? Are they bringing you down this fast?
    I'm SO sorry about that. That's totally my fault. I meant to message you. :s

    Keep going Cee! You're doing awesome! Xx
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