Re: No idea how I got here, feeling a bit lost
Hi all, thank you all for your support.
My son is fine thank you for asking, no probs at all thank God, as that would have been a different story.
Sleepy nurse, it's fucking hard. Tonight has been really really really fucking difficult for some reason. Maybe coming home to a house like a shit tip a very merry boyfriend and his friend with fuck all done.
Ok so bf has been to csmt today for assessment, great big step but jeez be taken time off work sick he not sick, he could have washed up or something, on top of that im dealing with dealing with life and all this shit and emotions plus that time of the month and I really fucking want to just cut loose and have fun and de-stress like normal people do. But oh fucking wait I can't do that can i?
I have this ball of rage inside me right now I flipped at Glyn snapped at the kids, I don't know how to cope without breaking and im the fucking crazy one?? Does he have a fucking clue what it's like to deal with all this shit with no fucking release?? No he fucking doesn't because he gets to sit at home drinking and smoking all fucking day arrggggghhhhhhh
And date night on Saturday gas turned into can my mate come. Like right this minute I want to tell him to fuck off with his mate and i stay home and get fucking smashed.
Man give me a fucking break. I'm doing everything I fucking should be Going to work, seeing my worker it's just not fucking fair how come he's ok to dribk drink drink?
And still I haven't scored although i fucking want too. But I have drug testing monday.
I got to find a way to slay this dragon inside of me before it snaps someone clean in half ������
No idea how I got here, feeling a bit lost :( (but found myself again a happy ending) - Part 33