No idea how I got here, feeling a bit lost :( (but found myself again a happy ending) - Part 36

By cbabycee · Feb 5, 2015 · ·
  1. Re: No idea how I got here, feeling a bit lost :(

    Yep I declared the crime and everything. I have to wait for a copy of the disclosure to see what else came up; if anything did its spent. It's kinda hard to remember everything I did when I was smashed to be honest but they were ok with the unspent stuff, and the rest is covered under the rehabilitation of offenders act.

    Not in s great place at the moment, putting on a brave strong front when inside im dying. Bf hasn't had a drink in 2 days and I'm so proud of him. Still no withdrawals. For him it's mental. I just hate having nothing to get up for. I loved that job so fucking much.

Comments

  1. cbabycee
    Re: No idea how I got here, feeling a bit lost :(

    Used 2 x in the last 5 days. Fuck my life. Still taking my subs
  2. natey7
    Re: No idea how I got here, feeling a bit lost :(

    Hey. Sorry to hear about your troubles.
    Try not to be too hard on yourself over it. The same sort of thing happened to me. I was clean and doing pretty good for a while. I slipped on the Opiates and before I knew it the withdrawal came right back! And to boot my cravings were more fierce than they had been in years! I honestly couldn't believe they could come back soo fast!! I was so scared, confused and most of all angry at myself.
    Hoping things get better for you. Stay strong.
    I really know how it feels after a lapse.
  3. cbabycee
    Re: No idea how I got here, feeling a bit lost :(

    Pfft I write this while waiting to score what the duck is wrong with me?
  4. soso
    Re: No idea how I got here, feeling a bit lost :(

    Your feeling sorry for yourself and giving in to your adiction, that's what's wrong with you.
    I'm not being a twat but that's the bottom line, I did it myself for years.
    My advise now would be its time to choose, if you want to keep using that's easy but if you don't want then you need to keep this relapse as short as possible and not do too much H to get your habit back. What will happen is the more you do the more you will fear the withdrawals that will come, maybe to the point of being too scared to go through it again.
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