No idea how I got here, feeling a bit lost :( (but found myself again a happy ending) - Part 95

By cbabycee · May 6, 2016 · ·
  1. Re: No idea how I got here, feeling a bit lost :( (but found myself again a happy end

    Ok so maybe not so happy ending - I'm back at my friends for 4 days as I had a mini lapse a couple of weeks ago.

    But stupid but there it is and I'm sorting it right away - so hoping to go through just a mini detox - which I'm just going to get on with to be honest as I deserve whatever is coming.

    Everything was going so awesome, and I just decided I wanted a pipe and a bag and that was that - here I am.

    Ah well...

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  1. JonnyBGoode
    Re: No idea how I got here, feeling a bit lost :( (but found myself again a happy end

    Sorry to hear that Cee I also had a mini lapse a few days ago, the Naltrexone is obviously still working as I didn't get high from the gear so it's not really a lapse in the sense that I didn't feel much but the intent was there. I had been clean for 10 weeks prior to that and just had a seriously stressful week last week for reasons I won't go into here and also decided I wanted a pipe and a bag, it was only 2 days of using hardly anything but it's still set me back a bit. I didn't have much withdrawal but my throat is fucked I think I'm actually ill as I'm coughing a lot and my chest is sore but I'm certain it's from staying up all night and smoking crack coupled with a mild withdrawal from the smack maybe.

    The weird thing is now I don't actually crave heroin or crack at all I just think what a dumb waste of time it was and that crack is horrible and heroin is pointless and feel pissed off with myself for slipping. It is what it is though just have to learn from it and not be stupid again, it's a reminder to stay on the ball as I'd kind of stopped putting as much effort into my recovery the week before it happened. Hope you're good anyway Cee it's just a blip stick with it.
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