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  1. I did it- I forced myself to go to uni and interract with all these people even while withdrawing nasty, feeling terrible physically and having pupils like I would be trippig on LSD ( I hope no one noticed).

    I just have to get over this physically uncomfortable stage.
    Hope that tomorrow I will feel better. At the moment I just feel like having fever, have irregular heartbeats etc, etc.And anxious.

    At least now I can take some remedies to cure this anxiousness. FB_IMG_1479039062654.jpg

    About Author

    A fully functioning (have a job and gaining second higher education as A+ student) IV addict from Eastern Europe trying to keep her life togeather and fighting herown demons.Trying make the best out of her life as far as it is possible keeping in mind the fact of her drug abuse.And not to die before time.

    Familiar with drugs for more than 12 years.


  1. Rainflake
    Welldone, you should congratulate yourself on any achievement. When you come off any drugs you have to try and be your own friend (even if you hate yourself).
    Going out into the judging eyes of others was brave when you are so anxious.
    Good luck to you x
  2. LittleBabyNothing
  3. gonzochef
    I love this journal, you show so much strength and determination. I wish I had that. I can't see anyone when I'm feeling this way, but you put yourself out there. Good on you!
  4. LittleBabyNothing
    Gonzochef, I actually think that the only thing I do show is how loathsome and weak I actually am. I am well aware of how banal this journal is, because it says nothing new, it is just allways repeating series of me trying to stay clean and failing. It just useless. But I need it, because writing everything down and having support from other DF members helps me at least somehow to keep on trying and not to give up completely.
  5. gonzochef
    I can see how you would feel that way, but not every attempt to get clean is a success story. Mine certainly isn't. But you show fortitude in your commitment to keep trying, even if you slip and fall multiple times. I commend you for that. It helps me to know that, although I am in the same boat, I can and will keep trying...
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  6. LittleBabyNothing
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