Hello, some of you know me, but most don't. I have been lurking and posting on other's threads here for about 6 months.
I am hoping to get some support, as I try to taper Oxycodone.
I guess a little history first would help. I had been prescribed opiates and benzos by my primary care doctor for 12 years for fibromyalgia and anxiety. Well, as we all know, nothing stays the same forever. My doctor suddenly had a change of heart and cut me off my Valium last September. Talk about living hell. There is no way to describe it. I still only sleep a couple hours every night.
A couple months ago, he decided that I needed to get off the percocets too, claiming a new policy for their company starting the 1st of January. One of the doctors in that practice is licensed to prescribe suboxone. When I asked about this option,I was told that he was not "doing that" anymore.
So, here I am now, getting oxycodone from someone I know. I am currently holding at 50 to 60mg. per day.
To be honest, I really am glad this happened. I was so tired of being a slave to these drugs. Well, the percocets anyway. I was always running short, pill counting, etc. (you know the drill). The Valium I never ran short and never gave much thought. It was only 10mg. per day. God, I wish I knew what a monster benzos can be when used daily for years.
I have sought the help of two other doctors to help me with the oxycodone withdrawal. One a regular M.D.; the other what I thought was an addiction specialist. Both told me to go to the county detox. Well, I already knew what that was all about as I had called to inquire and was told no comfort meds. They just house you for three days and call an ambulance if your vitals get too bad.
My options are county cold turkey detox, cold turkey detox at home or taper method. I picked tapering because I already feel so sick from lack of sleep since Sept. going off the Valium.
I know I must be really hooked because my body burns or tingles all over if I wait more than 3 hours to dose. I also have high blood pressure for which I take enalapril. I am prescribed Prozac 20mg. but tapered off that a year ago, because I felt it made me more anxious. I also am prescribed Toprol XL 25mg(metoprolol)but quit taking it as I felt crappy on it.
I have had a lot of traumatic things happen to me in my life which probably adds to the addiction I have found myself in. I know I am numbing myself out to the psychological pain. (I will spare you the details fpr now. Of course, this is my journal and it might do me good to write about the cicumstances that have led me down this road. Of course I didn't get physically or psychologically addicted being prescribed these substances for twelve years! Lol.
Currently, I take 5 10mg. pills and cut them into quarters and pop one every 2 1/2 hours. I already tried taking 1/2 every 4 hours and it just wasn't working. In fact, this isn't working either. I feel achy and exhausted constantly. My legs and arms feel so heavy. (read this could be benzo withdrawaI) got some red Borneo kratom, but worried I will just end up on both. Not too sure the kratom will hold me through cold turkey off the oxycodone. I do wonder if kratom could help with the constant anxiety and sleep?
Well, that's it for now. Thanks for reading and appreciate any ideas or comments. Anyone else is free to post their problems with opiates or benzos or both here. Maybe together we can get free.
Sorry for typos, using a mobile for this.