It's been crazy around here today, so just now able to post.
Kits, thanks for your support. Yes, it has been a hard time for me lately, but with everyone's help here at DF, I am making it through. I have been going to YouTube and listening to anxiety and sleep hypnosis, and it has actually worked! Now, sometimes I might only sleep 20 or 30 minutes, but those minutes are so refreshing and put me in a much better state of mind. Don't worry about the Loperamide. I didn't really notice any difference, but I only took 5 and that was it.
J.D., I do think the kratom I got is below par. Too many people have written how great it is for withdrawal and pain, and 4 tsps. just makes my belly feel full and I feel woozy on it or to stimulated if I take a little like 1 tsp. I thought maybe it is just me, but not too many other people report feeling that way. kratom supposed to be like a real green color? This stuff looks like the color of weed. The Lyrica has been a tremendous help. I almost feel like I can handle this now. Blissful sleep. I still just feel weak and anxious, but have felt like I am getting to the other side. Mood changes are a trip. Crying, anger, and laughter. Crazy huh?
IANZOMBIE Thanks for the tips. I have read a lot of your posts. I am honored that you came and posted on my thread.
Like Kitts said, I am thinking about a couple things to do after this. Something to make me happy. I am thinking about joining a local Art guild. I have let my hobby go by the wayside. I used to belong to one years ago. I entered shows, met other artists, and most of all got the
honor of knowing other artists and viewing their work. This might keep me on the right track. My canvas, paints, and brushes await me. I can't
waitwait until this is over. I think it is time I tried to get out and exercise
tmorrow. I am not going to push myself to hard, but it has been almost a week tomorrow. Life feels like it had passed me by for 12 years. I am so glad to get a second chance. I so want to do this right.
You all are the best!!! ((((HUGS)))) GDW