Oxycodone-No Stranger To The Rain - Part 17

By Golddust Woman · Feb 15, 2015 · ·
  1. Hi JD, I doing OK. Feeling depressed, but I know you were too. My body had got to learn to make it's own endorphins again. I know eating right and cardio workout will help. My appetite hasn't been very good since September when I got off the Valium. I have lost 20 lbs. already just from that. I needed to lose that, but no more. I imagine the Lyrics will add some weight. I saw a friend of mine gain since she started Lyrica but everyone is different. It is helping me a lot so far, but I don't intend to use it much longer, as it wasn't prescribed to me and I don't want withdrawal from it.

    Beachwalk, thanks for your help. I am kind of confused about the sourcing of kratom thing, as you didn't tell me exactly where to go. I guess it is like Kitts says, it is illegal in other countries and even here in several states in the U.S. I would surmise that if someone was advising another where they might get quality Heroin from if it was legal in some places but not others, would kind of be the same situation. However, you really didn't tell me exactly any particular vendor to use, unless I missed something. It is sad because it is kind of like censorship. We Americans are so used to the privilege of freedom of speech. International law is another story altogether.

    I hope everything is going well for you. I know its "one day at a time". I would have never dreamed that something so small as a pill could cause much grief. One would think some genius would have come up with a painkiller that wasn't addictive. Lol.

    Kitten, you are welcome to post here about your experience. I am sorry the side effects caused you to have to suffer. FM is rough. I noticed my FM symptoms seemed so much better once I got off benzos. Are you taking any? Of course, I ache in places I didn't know existed right now due to Oxycodone withdrawal. I did sleep 5 hours straight last night. Hope it goes as well tonight.

    GDW

    Golddust Woman added 741 Minutes and 53 Seconds later...

    I was just going over the last few posts on my thread and had to laugh at my analogy between heroin and kratom. Lol. Sometimes, I have a hard time communicating in writing what I really mean. Just replace the word heroin with marijuana. As kratom is nothing like heroin, not even close!

    Well, a friend of my husband's stopped by and he brought up that he was prescribed both oxy and hydrocodone. He said that he preferred the hydrocodone, as the oxycodone for him meant staring at a blank television screen for 2 hours. I guess he meant he was so stoned he couldn't remember what he watched. Then he said something that surprised me. He said he just gives away his oxycodone now. Of course the cravings hit me instantly and the little voice in my head said, Oh just one won't hurt you." I am proud to say I didn't cave, but I came so sooo close. Where was he when I got cut off C T? My mind even tried to justify getting one or two by reasoning, "Just for future use when I am suffering with pain." Well, thankfully, he is one of those types that only drops by a few times a year.

    Another day clean. Slept pretty good last night again. I hurt my neck somehow yesterday and woke up with it sore and hard to turn it to the right. I swear if I wasn't so shy I would get an hour long massage. I feel like a stomped on bullfrog! I have been wanting a hot tub for so long, I really could use one now! Lol.

    I hope everyone's weekend is going well. Thanks again for all your support. I don't know how I could get through this without you all.

Comments

  1. Kitts
    Well done GDW for ignoring that devilish little voice! That little voice may be with you a while, and it's good that you've put it in its place early on so it can't a get a footing. (I know voices don't have feet but hopefully you get my meaning. :p)

    A couple of dealers have been texting me, out of the blue, they have the most amazing deals (don't they always, when you're not buying!) and just yesterday that devilish little voice said to me; "we did used to really like smoking heroin, a lot". I was like WTF where did that come from, get behind me satan! Obviously I didn't act on it, but it caught me out. It's been 2 years since I used and I thought cravings were gone, or at least reserved for major disasters!

    Good on you GDW, for your vigilance and strength. It's encouraging to see, and your voice is added to the overwhelming positivity here that keeps us all lifted up and saying "Not today bucko". X
  2. Jungledog
    GDW,

    Good for you!! Makes no sense to be prescribed both drugs so his doctor is an idiot plus accepting controlled substances from another is a felony. And in the US there is a witch hunt on this shit fight now so if you get caught it will stick. Tell your friend to flush his shit. It will keep him out of jail.

    Yes, good food and exercise will help. The hard part of all this is the healing. We took drugs for a long time. It will take awhile for the body to reset itself. If the depressive symptoms stick,consider an antidepressant for a bit. Opiates really wreak havoc on the endocrine system and neurotransmitters. I often need to treat patients to improve seretonin levels.

    I have actually gained weight. I wish I could lose it. I think it is from the cymbalta and gabapentin. Pissing me off. I too get cravings from time to time. Sucks.

    I also was confused about the kratom sourcing comment as Beach did not tell you of a vendor. I thought you could list a type of kratom just not where you got it. Kitts, what exactly was done wrong? I think it made us all nervous about breaking the rules but we have no idea what rule was broken? Can you help us understand? None of us want to be banned. Thanks.

    Keep pushing through GDW. You are doing great!!
  3. BeachWalk
    Hi GDW, sounds like you're doing well. I'm so glad you got the kratom and lyrica. With those two you can ride out the worst of the withdrawals. I second JD's suggestion on an anti-depressant if need be. Personally I can't imagine not being on one — especially when going off opiates. I take Lexapro and I know that it helps both physical and mental pain.

    I'm really proud of your progress. You've had quite a time these past several months but just look at how far you've come. Really amazing girl. Congratulations. Keep posting here. It's good for the soul.
  4. charliecat
    Hi GDW
    WOW well done for your strength not getting the oxys..
    I know what you mean about the massage I too would love to have a massage but am to shy and don't like people touching me. I have it all to do to shake hands with someone and will actively avoid people I know who will try and cuddle me.. lol...reminded me of a few years back when someone bought me a massage at a SPA so I thought I would try it but after a few minutes the massager stopped and said I was so tense I felt like a lump of concrete...lol...I felt so embarrassed
    Anyway your doing great well done you should be so proud of yourself..I think your awesome
    CC
To make a comment simply sign up and become a member!