Hi JD, I doing OK. Feeling depressed, but I know you were too. My body had got to learn to make it's own endorphins again. I know eating right and cardio workout will help. My appetite hasn't been very good since September when I got off the Valium. I have lost 20 lbs. already just from that. I needed to lose that, but no more. I imagine the Lyrics will add some weight. I saw a friend of mine gain since she started Lyrica but everyone is different. It is helping me a lot so far, but I don't intend to use it much longer, as it wasn't prescribed to me and I don't want withdrawal from it.
Beachwalk, thanks for your help. I am kind of confused about the sourcing of kratom thing, as you didn't tell me exactly where to go. I guess it is like Kitts says, it is illegal in other countries and even here in several states in the U.S. I would surmise that if someone was advising another where they might get quality Heroin from if it was legal in some places but not others, would kind of be the same situation. However, you really didn't tell me exactly any particular vendor to use, unless I missed something. It is sad because it is kind of like censorship. We Americans are so used to the privilege of freedom of speech. International law is another story altogether.
I hope everything is going well for you. I know its "one day at a time". I would have never dreamed that something so small as a pill could cause much grief. One would think some genius would have come up with a painkiller that wasn't addictive. Lol.
Kitten, you are welcome to post here about your experience. I am sorry the side effects caused you to have to suffer. FM is rough. I noticed my FM symptoms seemed so much better once I got off benzos. Are you taking any? Of course, I ache in places I didn't know existed right now due to Oxycodone withdrawal. I did sleep 5 hours straight last night. Hope it goes as well tonight.
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I was just going over the last few posts on my thread and had to laugh at my analogy between heroin and kratom. Lol. Sometimes, I have a hard time communicating in writing what I really mean. Just replace the word heroin with marijuana. As kratom is nothing like heroin, not even close!
Well, a friend of my husband's stopped by and he brought up that he was prescribed both oxy and hydrocodone. He said that he preferred the hydrocodone, as the oxycodone for him meant staring at a blank television screen for 2 hours. I guess he meant he was so stoned he couldn't remember what he watched. Then he said something that surprised me. He said he just gives away his oxycodone now. Of course the cravings hit me instantly and the little voice in my head said, Oh just one won't hurt you." I am proud to say I didn't cave, but I came so sooo close. Where was he when I got cut off C T? My mind even tried to justify getting one or two by reasoning, "Just for future use when I am suffering with pain." Well, thankfully, he is one of those types that only drops by a few times a year.
Another day clean. Slept pretty good last night again. I hurt my neck somehow yesterday and woke up with it sore and hard to turn it to the right. I swear if I wasn't so shy I would get an hour long massage. I feel like a stomped on bullfrog! I have been wanting a hot tub for so long, I really could use one now! Lol.
I hope everyone's weekend is going well. Thanks again for all your support. I don't know how I could get through this without you all.