I haven't tried the Bali kratom yet
I am in a benzo withdrawal 'wave" again. That is how the symptoms are referred to on the benzo boards. I am unable to relax at all in my own skin. The same symptoms I had when I first c.t. off Valium. I can't believe this crap. It had been over 5 months since going off. I am extremely afraid this will never pass. The anxiety and feeling like I can't take a deep breath is so scary. Forget meditation right now. I keep having to walk, walk, walk. Nothing but time gets rid of this horrid feeling until it hits me again.
Some think I am strong, but when this hell hits me, I cry like a baby, so scared it won't ever end.
When I feel like this, I get bad thoughts and what if thinking. Whew!! I hope this wretched feeling goes away soon.
I would go to a shrink about this, but their answer is more drugs to cover up the damage the original drug did. I am just not ready to go that route yet. I know tonight or tomorrow this will pass and I will even forget how bad it was. It is strange that way.
I hope everyone is doing a heck of a lot better than me right now. Love to you all my friends, GDW