Oxycodone-No Stranger To The Rain - Part 19

By Golddust Woman · Feb 19, 2015 · ·
  1. I haven't tried the Bali kratom yet
    I am in a benzo withdrawal 'wave" again. That is how the symptoms are referred to on the benzo boards. I am unable to relax at all in my own skin. The same symptoms I had when I first c.t. off Valium. I can't believe this crap. It had been over 5 months since going off. I am extremely afraid this will never pass. The anxiety and feeling like I can't take a deep breath is so scary. Forget meditation right now. I keep having to walk, walk, walk. Nothing but time gets rid of this horrid feeling until it hits me again.

    Some think I am strong, but when this hell hits me, I cry like a baby, so scared it won't ever end.

    When I feel like this, I get bad thoughts and what if thinking. Whew!! I hope this wretched feeling goes away soon.

    I would go to a shrink about this, but their answer is more drugs to cover up the damage the original drug did. I am just not ready to go that route yet. I know tonight or tomorrow this will pass and I will even forget how bad it was. It is strange that way.

    I hope everyone is doing a heck of a lot better than me right now. Love to you all my friends, GDW

Comments

  1. BeachWalk
    Golddust -- The Bali kratom can help with your anxiety. I would definitely take some. Forget benzos, you're still going through oxycodone withdrawals.

    Also don't forget the lyrica or gabapentin. I know the feeling of not being able to take a deep breath because of anxiety. It will pass and you will not feel like this forever. Right now you just need to treat the ongoing withdrawal symptoms -- it takes a long time but it does get better. Seriously, go take some kratom and report back please.
  2. Golddust Woman
    Hey Beachwalk,

    Just got this post. Hope you are doing well. Well, I just took 2 tps. of the Bali kratom mixed in a little orange juice. I hope this goes well. Yea, this anxiety stuff is what I hate the most about withdrawal. The Lyrica helps some, just don't want to become dependant on that.

    Thank you for your continued support. I will post later how it affects me.
  3. Jungledog
    GDW,

    Benzos fuck up your brain. Ride the waves and keep reminding yourself that it will pass. It sounds like you do not want to take medications but clonidine could help a lot. It is not addicting. I use it frequently with patients for anxiety instead of benzos.

    You could try Valerian root and chamomile tea. Restorative yoga specific to anxiety, quiet or calming music (reggae works well), and keep walking. Hot showers, warm baths with lavender, and try distraction in any form.

    Hang in. I know it sucks.
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