Yesterday, I tried holding at 50mg. Everything was fine until 2:30 this morning. I ended up taking the extra 5mg. I am just so tired of feeling sick and tired. Valium withdrawal has really kicked my axx! Lol.
I will try to hold at 50mg. today. I already feel like such a failure. For all those who have managed to get off high doses of opiates, you are incredibly strong. Maybe, I would be stronger if I had some real sleep in the past five months. I dunno. Years ago, I found myself in a situation where I had to CT 40mg. of hydrocodone. It was rough, but I did it. Life, fibromyalgia, and a doc giving me monthly scripts, led me down this path I find myself on now. Hindsight really is 20/20.
I guess that was a strong statement about benzos. They are great when not used daily, month after month, year after year.
JD, thanks for the heads up about the gabapentin being habit-forming. Is it OK to use it here and there? Will it still work that way? That would be so great if it will also help my benzo withdrawal. My appt. is Thurs. Keep your fingers crossed for me.
Going to try and get a nap now.