Thought I'd do a little update. Not sure what day I'm on. As I said I stopped counting because I kept dabbling. Well my dabbling days have ended as of last week. I'm done!! Sick of poking the dragon.
So, still using kratom, but planning on stopping that as of tomorrow. Last night was the first night I went to bed without anything in my system. Woke at 5am with the sheets soaked!!
I have cut back my kratom dosage which is prob the cause? I no longer have any widthdrawl symptoms. Other than my stomach still being in knots or shiting like mad!!
Started running again! Like actually running! I ran a 5km race on sunday. It felt amazing!! For that brief time I finally felt cured. But all good things come to an end.
I've been feeling really lazy and depressed as of late. Just feel like I have no goals or ambition anymore. Kinda like I don't know my purpose. Everything seams like a chore and so bland.
Today I started seeing a addiction counselor/psychologist. It's amazing how fast the time goes when your talking about your life. Wish my days went that fast!!
Anyways, it was only my first visit. And I think I overwhelmed her with all my issues/history. Obviously an hour wasn't enough to really dig deep... but she did mention some interesting things that could be a cause/trigger to my addiction.
Verdict is still out! But I'm slowly getting my life back. Just wish I felt good about it.