1-29-19 Howzitgoin everybody!
I'm grateful to be here. It's been a crazy fucked up day and it's good to sit down and connect with my tribe.
I've mentioned this before on more than one occasion: I ain't never had a family, no relatives, no blood ties in this world, and I'm a loner who can count my friends on just one hand. And I'm ok with that. I cherish my privacy and my solitude and I seem to get more reclusive with age. I ain't shy or socially awkward.
DF is my family. I'm ok with that too.
Anyone here who reads my journals or what I post on the threads knows me far better than my friends in the real world. Here I open up and let you see who I am. In the real world I give nuthin away.
As an example; I don't reveal to the denizens of the real world that in the past I was a criminal by vocation. It was the life I chose. It was my job. I was good at it.
I reached a point in my life when I realized it was time to change my way of livin. I'm no longer a criminal. I function in society and I abide by the law of the land, the single colossal exception being my drug habits.
The laws which dictate what chemicals I may or may not put in my body are unconstitutional, based on fear, prejudice, and misinformation, are unfairly harsh, and represent a double standard when compared to society's acceptance of alcohol. All that's beside the point. Those are the laws. I choose to break them. It is what it is. I'm gonna do my dope.
It's dope and only dope which brands me a criminal.
Illegal drugs are poison. We do ourselves harm when we abuse them. All too often drug abuse ends up killin us. DF advocates harm reduction to save lives and minimize the harm we inflict upon ourselves when we indulge in drug abuse.
Drug abuse also puts us in harm's way in regards to the draconian punishments inflicted upon us when we get popped. Our defense attorneys can thus be viewed as one form of judicial harm reduction. We should each practice judicial harm reduction just as we abide by DF's harm reductive philosophy cuz runnin afoul of the mounties can have such a devastating (and unjust) impact on our lives.
Fat Jack is hot. His apartment is hot. He's done state time for dealin and he's dealin today outta the very same apartment he was dealin outta when he got popped.
Only once (when we were introduced) have I ever actually set foot inside Fat Jack's place. Fat Jack delivers. I pay him a lil bit for performin this service. This is one judicial harm reductive tactic I use.
If Fat Jack ain't mobile and I gotta go to him, in the interest of judicial harm reduction, I dial up my point man, Izzy, who, for a price, is willin to assume the risk involved in makin a buy from a hot dealer in a hot location on my behalf. Izzy's a heroin addict and a decent guy and he's always ready at a moment's notice to make a run with me, so I'm always exceedingly generous with him.
A 40-somethin hardcore neck-shootin junkie with no car, no job, and livin with his parents, Izzy's kinda sub-functional and he's gotta hustle everyday to keep from gettin sick, so I kinda look out for him even when he ain't loggin billable hours on my clock. I really wish he'd get clean cuz he's shonuf livin in the shadow of his tombstone.
I implement specific judicial harm reduction tactics tailored for specific dealers and specific circumstances. I also observe a few basic judicial harm reductive rules that are SOP, (standard operating procedure) in pretty much all situations.
Two of these are; I score well in advance of my needs, and I score in bulk.
Scorin in advance of my needs prevents me from bein reckless outta sheer desperation cuz I'm already sick or on the verge of bein sick. Scorin in bulk means less trips to the well, which means reduced odds of gettin popped and bein far less likely to establish an easily discernable pattern that even the dumbest cop will spot eventually.
There's several more lil harm reductive safety tips that I observe in order to avoid gettin popped, such as keepin my ride in good workin order and the tags and registration up to date so I don't get pulled over, but I gotta stay mindful that harm reduction implies that harm, tho reduced, still remains a certainty.
Recovery thru abstinence is the only way I can achieve genuine immunity from the many harmful consequences of my habit