Poly Drug abuse, I quit. - Part 1

By Gallama · Apr 4, 2015 · ·
  1. For the past three months I have fallen into a lifestyle where not a day goes by that I do not get high. A ton of marijauana most days, but when that isn't available I use hydrocodone, alcohol, morning glory, and DXM. The marijuana hooked me because it prevents any manic or depressed states due to my bipolar disorder. But that just feels to me as if I'm hiding from my problems. I lied to myself when I first started using, always saying just one more day and then I'd stop. I know it has a negative impact on my life. I've ended up in the emergency room, detrimented my health, and depleted what little savings I had managed to acquire. I've been forsaking time with friends and family to feed an addiction. So I quit, right now.

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  1. Kitts
    Hi Gallama,

    Sorry you've been having a rough time. It sounds like you've made a clear decision to change things for the better. Good for you. I'm behind you all the way. You can do this. Especially once you've made up your mind so clearly. I hope better days will be coming for you soon.

    Wishing you all the best, Kitts.
  2. Once.up.on.a.time
    Hey Hun well done in being able to recognise you have a problem.

    Do you feel you have a problem with all substances. Just the weed.
    What are you using on a "normal" day?

    How are you acquiring the Rx medication? What do you take for your bipolar?

    These questions will help me help you. A big picture is always much clearer than a piece of a jigsaw puzzle.

    There is no shame In Mental Illness sweetheart. People don't like others that don't fit in to their mould of the world. All their holes are circles. A person with a mental illness is a square.

    There are a few who can't through ignorance, and prejudice accept those who are different.

    Well FUCK them. I'd rather have fifty sides than be a circle. It's down to these circles we feel shame and hurt. Confused and lost. We try to lose our edges in drugs and abuse of ourselves.

    But what's so great about having only one line make you.

    I hope my soap box rambling made sense to someone like it does to me.

    OP stay strong. Be proud of who you are. Love yourself.

    I'm here if you need support.

    Much love

    Fairy Princess xxx
  3. Cwb20022
    Hey Gallama

    You've been mentioned in the .issing members thread. Figured I'd ask how your doing. I know you haven't been on in awhile. Kinda hoping the e-mail notification will bring you back. .
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