Last night I had a major craving, the sort that would just not go away despite every distraction technique I tried, but unlike when the same thing happened just over a week ago and I indulged in a few lines to get the monkey off my back, I was determined not to repeat that mistake again because I've got my first test coming up next week and I'm determined to give my first ever sample clean of heroin.
My grown up son, who knows everything about what I'm going through, could see how distressed and emotional I was and came over to give me a cuddle. He asked if there was anything he could do to help me and as I'd read somewhere that smoking weed can help some people with withdrawal symptoms, I suggested trying a joint might help.
BIG mistake, it didn't chill me out at all, in fact it made me even more on edge and restless. I felt spaced out but not in a good way, I couldn't string a sentence together or walk in a straight line, but none of it was pleasurable. My other half went mad at me cos I couldn't function or straighten myself up enough to drive him somewhere he wanted to go.
Needless to say I won't be trying that method to relax me again!
Has smoking weed helped others in the same situation or have you too had a bad experience?
I'd be interested to hear how others have reacted to having a joint to try and cure heroin cravings.
Be lucky, Sue xx