Preparing for first home methadone detox - Part 6

By siouxzee369 · Oct 31, 2014 · ·
  1. Hi Cmenot, our new local drug service is a shambles!!

    For nearly 20 years, on and off, I worked quite happily with my counselors at CADS [community alcohol and drugs service] and they helped me stabalize my life, stop committing crime to fund my heroin habit and gave me and my partner the skills needed to bring up our children successfully, etc

    Unfortunately, CADS has just been replaced by the NRP [norfolk recovery program] and every thing has changed for the worst. They simply do not have enough staff to cover the vast number of clients they have taken on and who are spread out over an even larger area than CADS used to cover.

    My first keyworker with the new service was lovely, we had loads in common and would chat about everyday things as well as my habit over a cup of coffee but couple of months ago she had a stroke and had to give up work.

    Her replacement, my second counselor was straight out of training, younger than my kids and had no life experience at all. She could not relate to the crime and violence I'd been part of in the past. she couldn't advise me on bringing up teenage boys who are into the illegal party scene and its associated drugs, and she has no experience of the mental and physical health problems that my partner suffers from which I have to cope with on a daily basis. In fact she was no use to me at all and I told the prescribing doctor just that.

    I don't think they've got anyone else experienced enough to cope with my life time of dilemmas available in my area to put me with!

    Also, I'm not much of a people person. I am an only child and was bought up in a very rural area with no other children nearby to play with. I've suffered from social anxiety all through my school years and into adulthood. I have low self esteem and avoid contact with others whenever possible. I would far rather just be left alone with the internet, perhaps a book to read or some art supplies to keep me content and without the interference of other people.

    If it was not for my fear of unknown social situations and strangers, then a support group would be great idea but besides my social phobia I also cannot leave my partner at home alone for too long at a time because of his mental and physical disabilities.

    So looks like I'll just have to keep battling on alone, not using anything except my prescribed medication and taking life one day at a time for now.
    I thank this site and its members so much for taking the time and trouble to encourage me and offer support and advice.

    God bless you all and be lucky, Sue xx

Comments

  1. Jungledog
    Sioux,

    Just wanted to say hello and welcome. I am new here too. I have never used heroin. I am here for support coming off oxycodone so I do not know much about your situation but I know about the opiate trap. Just wanted to tell you that your art idea is fantastic. Keeping busy, really busy is how I have been handling cravings. I read, play games, draw. I also have been focusing on repairing my body with healthy food and exercise. Most days I force myself to walk 4 miles. God knows I do not feel like it but it helps me feel better and I have noticed I have less cravings for hours after I am done. Plus I have lost 6 pounds which is great at middle age! ;)

    Wish you the best.

    Hugs,
    JD
  2. Cmenot
    I'm so sorry you lost your great key worker.. It sounds like she was experienced and supportive. I wish I knew what to suggest but I am unfamiliar with whats available in UK. This site has been invaluable to many, read and post as much as you can!
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