I visited a friend who had a baby nine weeks ago. We walked around the park near her house with the baby and sat on her porch and talked a bit. When I left I realized how crazy it is that I want to continue taking heroin. I also realized that with the buprenorphine the tides turn such that impulsive acts of insanity to do opiates will be thwarted, but impulsive moments of clarity will compel me to take the pill and prevent relapse later. As frustrating as it can be, I guess that’s why buprenorphine and its long half life works.