quitting opiates cold turkey- on day 3 - Part 10

By smith9666 · Nov 19, 2014 · ·
  1. Thanks so much for the encourment. :)

    I've been thinking about whether or not to update this journal for a couple days. I just felt that maybe I had it a little too easy going through this and others will be offended... Does any of that make sense? LOL

    I had my bad days but it was 4 days that was bad and I could handle 4 days of that in order to get off of them. It was horrible and sucked but I have to say that the someone or maybe even a couple people here (probably you and JD) gave me the best advice when I first started out. They said a lot of how the WD symptoms will affect me is going to be based on my attitude going into this. Also, not knowing what to expect may have helped.

    I'm pretty sure I've gone through WD's of pain meds and just didnt understand it at the time and dealt with it. My last ordeal would be when I had 3rd degree burns. I had to stay in the hospital for a while and undergo 3 different skin graph surgeries. I don't know what was given to me in the hospital but I'm sure it was some kind of strong pain meds and when I was discharged I was given a hefty prescription as well. Well of course I like to just say I'm fine and I don't need meds or help so in stopped if within a few days of leaving the hospital not understanding how any of that worked. I felt like crap for about 5 days and just summed it up to my injuries or a cold. Im sure it may have been the short term use but I definatley had some mild WD symptoms from it.

    Anyways, the point of all this rambling is that out of all the advice that was the one that helped me get through it the most. It stuck with me. I forced myself to eat 5 small meals a day during this entire process and drink plenty of water. My stomach issues were very little and I would hope it was from that. I also slept every night due to my doctors help. Although the ambien has messed with my memory for those 3 days I took it (its like I have no memory of anything that I did.) xanax was a life saver for the worse 4 nights and the rest sits in the medicine cabinet because I dont need it.

    Okay so what symptoms I still have. In all honesty I think its mental at this point. I have been having trouble falling asleep at night and i can't call it RLS... I'm just restless and anxious which is a new feeling for me. I've never been someone who was anxious or stressed but imm sure it will get better as time goes on. My head feels a lot clearer just from these 13 days so I can't wait to see how I feel in a couple months. I'm already starting to feel like my old self and even started running again and i run long distance so that takes a lot of energy that I surprisingly have and it seems like each day I get more and more. More then I ever felt over this past couple years I was on the pain meds.

    This has been a very humbling experience to share my story and especially coming from someone who knew nothing to expect and I really had nobody who i went ronduring this for support but you guys and my doctor who completely disagreed with my method to stop. I'll respect his opinion because he's a good doctor but I'm so glad I did it this way. Tapering and dealing with the slow process would not be my thing. That just seems cruel to stretch out the symptoms like that. At least in my case.

    Anyways thanks again lostlygirl and JD for your kind words during this. I'm sorry I could not be as supportive tto you as you are to me. I can't give advice on something I know little about but I appreciate your kind words and support. And I like that we are both on the same day as far as stopping. :)

    smith9666 added 15 Minutes and 38 Seconds later...

    I forgot to add that like so many others who are on here I was taking them for legitimate pain and of course we know how that story goes as far as the dosing quickly going up and up due to tolerance of the drug. I felt that I had the right to do so because it was prescribed and I was in pain. I work 10 hour shifts minimum (often 11-12 though not including the 1 hour commute almost) 5 days a week and often 6 days a week so of course during those long days I took more so I had no pain and my doctor would prescibe more based on my usage for how my life was going at that time.

    Well now I'm stuck with how to deal with the pain that is still there. Right now I'm using over the counter meds here and there and trying to go the natural route. Luckily ots not debilitating pain but its real and there. My passion for exercise will always just make me push through the pain but right now the pain feels good. I know that sounds stupid but pain is OKAY to have at times. I can still function with it just fine in my opinion so why not just "deal with it" as so many others do.

    That's where I'm at now. Trying to figure out safe methods to alleviate the pain. The gabopentin works wonders for it but I discontinued that as well. I used only about 10 of my 100 count prescription on purpose.

    So if anyone has any ideas or know what worked for them that was a more natural way please share. I would love to hear it. Right now hot baths help it great. I think working out may eventually help it but right now it's making it worse but I don't care LOL. I'm not stopping that because its what I'm focused on and its healthy for me.

    Thanks again everyone! Sorry for any spelling errors. I'm on my cell doing this :)

Comments

  1. Jungledog
    Smith,

    Super proud of you! And happy you are doing so well! I do not think you had it easy, nobody does. The higher you go, the worse the withdrawal. Stay off.

    I do believe this game is 100% mental. Yes, the physical shit is very real but you overcome it by what you think. You literally think your way out of this nightmare.

    Oh and you certainly are welcome to keep posting on my thread. You certainly can give me something in return for my support...your ongoing support. As a team, we can help each other get clean and stay that way.

    Hugs,
    JD
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