I know I guess I'm just hoping for a miracle LOL. I think unless it gets worse (as in it gets really bad more then a couple days a week) then I'll just keep my appointment schedule as is. I still have a bunch of the gabopentin to use if I have to resort to that and they surprisingly work very well for the pain at night because well they knock me out! Haha. I also still have ultram but I really want to stay away from that one.
I do respect your thoughts on that though. I can't be scared to used meds just because of what I went through. I have the same thoughts as you do as far as using opiads occasionally.... It will probably be something I have to use but not to the point that its a daily dosage and most certainly not the mg and dosage o was prescribed before.
I don't know, this is all a little difficult to try to make a decision on. I think for now I will just track how often the pain is to the point that I feel meds would help and see if its as infrequent as I think. I think its only a couple ndays a week but it may be more because I'm not really paying too much attention to it.