quitting opiates cold turkey- on day 3 - Part 46

By smith9666 · Dec 15, 2014 · ·
  1. Thanks LG :)

    Ive been around and keeping up on your guy's threads but I just haven't been feeling up to posting lately. I don't know why but I'm kind of in a 'funk' I guess is the word for it. I just feel really down and I can't figure out what the issue is.

    This is just a lot harder then I thought it would be. I thought the hardest part would be the wd symptoms and that is so not true. Its really hard dealing with all the emotional crap that I have suppressed with the pills. I can't get away from it by taking a few extra pills anymore and it just SUCKS!

    I know I'm being really negative but its just how I feel.
    Also, I'm really feeling kind of hopeless right now because I'm reading so many threads and I am not finding that many sucess stories with happy endings. So far this site has really been a great support and I can't thank everyone enough for that. But right now I just need to know that there is a chance for me and I'm not seeing it. Its just getting to me I guess.

    Thanks again for checking up on me. I really appreciate you and JD :)

    P.s. whatever you do, DO NOT refill the fentanyl !!! :)

Comments

  1. lostlygirl
    Smith,

    What you are going through is a part of the process. Your brain is rewiring itself, and its hard work. Before, it had coping mechanisms in place that have been rerouted by the drugs. Your brain is just figuring out it's new path. That's a good thing. It takes time.

    There are many, many success stories, we just don't hear about them. People stop writing because they don't feel relevant or needed on a drug forum once they become clean, when in reality the very opposite is true. We need to hear others success stories. Those stories give us a road map of what to expect.

    You are a success story, it just doesn't feel that way to you right now. Its a difficult road, but not an impossible road. Remember, it's a road and not a dead end, my friend. Sometimes, though, we need to rest by the side and regroup, and that's OK.

    You have been through a lot. Truly processing it is going to be difficult. Pain demands to be felt. We can put it off, but until we feel it, experience and honor it, it waits for us. Embrace it, honor it, feel it, and acknowledge it. In doing so it will pass through you. Write, its cathartic.

    You are a brave, kind soul. You bring a beauty and a love that it's readily felt. Remember your beauty and never, ever, underestimate your power, because you, girl, are strong.
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