Damn... No fair!! LOL just kidding.
Other then the nightmares, I sleep okay. I bought some melatonen and that helps A LOT. I also think that getting a routine and set schedule as far as bedtime goes should help. Right now with working my sleep schedule varies daily.
I'm going to go ahead and try that SSRI. I have another appointment next week and he will be prescribing it then. Hopefully with that and adding in the other meds for pain you have advised I should be good. I am going to ask for the gabopentin and the other one you said.. I have it wrote down but I think it was called mobic? Something like that.
I talked to my doctor when I had the FMLA paperwork filled out and said that those are both good ideas for pain control but also said that he would advice that I still take a script for the narcotics and use sparingly. He even offered to only write 15-20 at a time and then I would have to drop in there to get more. I think that's a good idea because it would make me more aware of the usage. That amount should last for a while if i use it properly and use the other meds first. The plan would to only use the narcotics when it gets too bad.
I hope you are doing well. I also hope that everything works out with you and your husband. I was a kid of divorce and yes it can be very upsetting but I would honestly say that it was worse before they separated and one moved out then it was after the divorce. Obviously your situation may be better then that one was but I preferred a broken home to one that was in constant hostility and fighting. I think it's good that you guys are working it out and at least trying to work on it for the kids and waiting until they are out of the house to make any final decisions. That is if the fighting isn't too bad (every couple fights some) and the kids don't feel like they would prefer you guys to split up over what they have now! LOL. Kids are very smart. They also hear everything, even when they are "sleeping" during the late night fights and such. I really hope you guys can work it out though.
Okay so when are we planning the rose parade and our tatoos??? I'm free for the next 3 months starting December 27th!!!! My leave has already been approved by Metlife who handles that for our company. It was very quick and easy to do and I was pleasantly surprised about that. I haven't decided what tatoo to get. I thought k would have a lot more time to plan it but then you got all crazy and jumped off the kratom like superwoman and have done great since then!
I know you are far too busy and stressed out to just step back and look at it but if you do get the chance to, you would be amazed at how far you have came in this past 6 weeks or so. Even just since I've been on here writing. I was bored last night so I read through my entire journal. It was very inspiring and I think I need to do that every now and then. I forget how far I have came. I also read theough LG's and yours last night. Its just incredible to see the changes.