quitting opiates cold turkey- on day 3 - Part 52

By smith9666 · Dec 20, 2014 · ·
  1. Damn... No fair!! LOL just kidding.

    Other then the nightmares, I sleep okay. I bought some melatonen and that helps A LOT. I also think that getting a routine and set schedule as far as bedtime goes should help. Right now with working my sleep schedule varies daily.

    I'm going to go ahead and try that SSRI. I have another appointment next week and he will be prescribing it then. Hopefully with that and adding in the other meds for pain you have advised I should be good. I am going to ask for the gabopentin and the other one you said.. I have it wrote down but I think it was called mobic? Something like that.

    I talked to my doctor when I had the FMLA paperwork filled out and said that those are both good ideas for pain control but also said that he would advice that I still take a script for the narcotics and use sparingly. He even offered to only write 15-20 at a time and then I would have to drop in there to get more. I think that's a good idea because it would make me more aware of the usage. That amount should last for a while if i use it properly and use the other meds first. The plan would to only use the narcotics when it gets too bad.

    I hope you are doing well. I also hope that everything works out with you and your husband. I was a kid of divorce and yes it can be very upsetting but I would honestly say that it was worse before they separated and one moved out then it was after the divorce. Obviously your situation may be better then that one was but I preferred a broken home to one that was in constant hostility and fighting. I think it's good that you guys are working it out and at least trying to work on it for the kids and waiting until they are out of the house to make any final decisions. That is if the fighting isn't too bad (every couple fights some) and the kids don't feel like they would prefer you guys to split up over what they have now! LOL. Kids are very smart. They also hear everything, even when they are "sleeping" during the late night fights and such. I really hope you guys can work it out though. :)

    Okay so when are we planning the rose parade and our tatoos??? I'm free for the next 3 months starting December 27th!!!! My leave has already been approved by Metlife who handles that for our company. It was very quick and easy to do and I was pleasantly surprised about that. I haven't decided what tatoo to get. I thought k would have a lot more time to plan it but then you got all crazy and jumped off the kratom like superwoman and have done great since then!

    I know you are far too busy and stressed out to just step back and look at it but if you do get the chance to, you would be amazed at how far you have came in this past 6 weeks or so. Even just since I've been on here writing. I was bored last night so I read through my entire journal. It was very inspiring and I think I need to do that every now and then. I forget how far I have came. I also read theough LG's and yours last night. Its just incredible to see the changes.

Comments

  1. lostlygirl
    I've been thinking of you, Smith. That's a lot of reading you did :)!! I plan on reading Mr Bumbles entire thread one of these days too!

    I had the most wonderful surprise last night. I was just getting ready to go grab some milk with my 15 year old at about 8:00 pm last night, and the door opens and in walks my oldest daughter and her husband! It was like the twilight zone because I had no idea she was coming. They drove all the way from Utah to surprise me, and I was so happy!

    Christmas had really snuck up on me this year. I have my Christmas lights up outside, but I haven't put up the tree yet (I know, I know, really bad....). I think I have been dreading it because it's my first year without her at home. We are getting a tree today and are decorating it together. They can only stay the weekend as her hubby has to work on Mon. He had his associates in nursing, and is going back to school to get his RN starting in August.

    Its so fun to have her at home. I miss her a lot :)

    I am glad you are getting time off of work. It will be good for you to get out and be around people. Maybe even sign up for match, lol! If I had more time to date, and if I wasn't stuck in a semi idiotic partial undefined relationship, I would really enjoy it more. :) There really are a lot of really good guys on there. It really doesn't have the stigma it used to have.

    I cannot take clonidine either, grrrr... It sounds like the perfect withdrawal drug. I don't think I would really care if I was passed out whilst withdrawing, lol!

    Be careful with that script, my dear. It can be easy to fall back into the trap. I know you know the problems so no preaching from me, today...lol!

    I notice and miss you when you don't post. JD, you and I really bonded and I noticed when both of you are absent.

    Love you, girl.

    lostlygirl added 3 Minutes and 45 Seconds later...

    Also look into meet-up. There are some very fun stuff to join in on, and its less pressure than dating. I am planning on attending a few at the beginning of the year!
  2. Jungledog
    Smith,

    What to do with my marriage is a very difficult decision. LG nailed it when she asked me what I want to do for me. I think I am ready to leave. I just am finally to the point where I don't feel connected to him anymore, I am tired of dealing with his issues, and I just need to step away and figure things out. My ocean place becomes available in April. If I am still feeling this way, I will move there for a few months to get my head figured out.

    It is very hard when a marriage begins to fail. I have been trying to just put on a smiling face and pretend all is well. But it isn't. My depression tells me it isn't. The financial picture makes this even harder as I am the one supporting everyone. My son is quite happy in his home and so I can't sell it for 9 years. It is very difficult to make decisions that hurt your kids but I am realizing I am going to have to hurt them. The whole thing sucks. This is what oxy covered up.

    As for tattoos, I am serious about us having a weekend next summer. You can all come to the ocean. We will have LG design the tattoo. We will freaking have fun!!!
  3. lostlygirl
    I am still planning on it! :) :) :)
  4. Jungledog
    Merry Christmas girl!! I am so happy that your leave starts today. How awesome!! Enjoy your time off. :)
  5. lostlygirl
    Merry Christmas!! I miss you! I hope you are having a great holiday season. Love always!
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