It's been 13 days since I stopped. It feels much longer yet at the same time like it was yesterday.... Its hard to explain.
I feel great. I'm still feeling 'light' WD symptoms here and there. I'm actually okay with it at this point. It feels good to be able to honestly not want to take anymore. I guess I'm enjoying my willpower seeing how I have had a full prescription for them and most of another script already filled from last month before I quit. I just recently got rid of both. I'm not sure why I kept them. I didn't take them during even the worst days but I felt the need to keep them? Maybe to prove to myself that I was serious about stopping... I'm not sure.
The ambien is out due to me sleep walking and also having no memory of the days for the most part. Xanax is still around but hasn't been used for awhile because I'm afraid of dependence as far as sleeping goes even though I logically know it won't be an issue for a few weeks. It was a life saver during days 3-7 to knock me out at night but i quit on day 8 and slept just fine. Its all mental I guess. I have been taking gabopentin very low dose occasionally when I feel too restless and I got a nice surprise. It actually helps with my back pain which I wasn't expecting. That's nice however yet again another drug that can cause dependence and addiction so I'm staying away from using it daily or in high doses. I would prefer the backpain I experience over wd's anyday. My doctor continues to tell me that there is no dependence when it comes to gabopentin but I don't necessarily agree or trust that i wont have issues stopping. Great for WD symptoms but I think ill keep it for that only.
Just thinking out loud I suppose....