Re: Quitting oxy using suboxone taper.
Thanks for the kind words.
It certainly has been an insane time in my life. My boys came early (as trips usually do) and had to spend 2.5 months in NICU. Almost lost one a day after they were born (he stopped breathing). I stood there and watched as 15 people crowded around the incubator worked on bringing him back. He literally turned blue. What was about 2 minutes seemed like a lifetime. I remember the social worker coming up to me and asking if I needed a chair and I couldn't even open my mouth to say anything. Glad my wife wasn't there.
Hands down the WORST day of my life.
They're all doing great now. Healthy and active. You're certainly right. There's no downtime with three yet I still find myself planning my next sub dose. Thoughts come and go throughout the day. It's hard fighting alone but that's just reality. I will emerge stronger than ever on the other side.
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So the plan is tomorrow I cut my sub dose in half again. So I'll be down to .25 mg per day.
I feel like hypersensitivity is my worst enemy. Symptoms which a non-addict would just shrug off make me want to reach for comfort meds. Every little twitch and every little ache awakens a desire to take something to make it go away no matter how minor or tollerable symptoms are.
Went out last night with a few friends to a local bar after helping my wife put the kids to sleep. Definitely for a few hours didn't think about subs or the taper. Got fairly drunk and suffering consequences today. Hungover. Still had to get up at 6am and feed the kids and then take them outside for an hour walk. The walk and the fresh air did help make the hangover better. At 11:30 took my usual .25 mg sub.
Will check back soon.
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Fucking slipped today on 30 mg oxycontin. Fuck!!! That's all I can say. I'm due to lower my sub dose tomorrow and still plan on doing that. Will let y'all know how it goes.