Wow. Thank you for taking the time to respond and share. You have no idea what kind of a positive effect posts like yours have on me. I'm eternally grateful for people like you who make me feel not so alone in all this.
As far as telling or not telling my wife...I'd just rather finish this on my own. I was getting high alone so only fitting that I come down alone. Made it to this point although it took a while. It would be nice if she knew from the start but now...when things are good and we're happy id much rather keep it quiet than give her something new to stress about. She already gets little sleep and we're both tired but if I did tell her I know it would make her stress. I earned my trust back with her FINALLY, although it's not real
Now she feels comfortable having Percocet or Vicodin around the house without having to hide it. She recently had her wisdom teeth taken out and has a few Percocet left over. They've been sitting in the medicine cabinet for a month or more. I know better than to try and take some. So I don't.
Woke up feeling ok today. It's a drop day so I'll only be taking .25 mg of sub today. I may give kratom a try if things get real bad but so far it hasn't been that horrible.
Hydroxyout added 816 Minutes and 16 Seconds later...
Yep. Today was supposed to be my next taper day but I stayed at .5 mg.
For some reason just felt horrible the entire day. Most likely unrelated to the taper. Was tired at work. Agitated. Head was cloudy and heavy. Will drop to .25 tomorrow. I know I'm just dragging out the inevitable here. On a more positive side, put the boys to sleep and got to spend some time with my wife just hanging out watching John Stewart. We don't get a lot of alone time together anymore. I miss it.