Hey everyone! Hope you're all doing well and still kicking! Sorry I'v been MIA, this time it's not a relapse. I'm glad to say that I'm on day 9 clean and sober and still going strong. No suboxone this time. I did feel very shitty mentally the first 3-4 days after my relapse but picked myself up and kept going. Still working out daily and feeling fresh.
I'v been very busy with the holiday and all. Long weekend meant getting extra exhausted running around with the boys but it was great fun. I'm also gunning for a managerial position in my office so been reading/studying material that would make me better informed and ready to take on the job. The prospect of a promotion is certainly motivational and keeps me in a fairly good mood.
I'v been reflecting a lot on the events of these last few years. This entire process of quitting and staying off sometimes seems like a fairytale because there's almost a daily urge to use. I just keep reminding myself of the awful physical but even worse psychological consequences of using and that helps steer clear for now. I know I should just let go and forget about this last relapse but it makes me so sad to think I was almost a month clean and now back to the beginning.
I still know for a fact that if it wasn't for all of your support, I wouldn't be able to be in the place where I am now. Thank you all from the bottom of my heart.
I'll try to update more often.
P.S. I did go back to my suboxone doctor and told him I have RLS (after the relapse) and had him write me a script for gabapentin. It definitely helped me tremendously through the first 4 days.