Hi everyone! Well I'm glad to report that I'm still clean and starting to patch things up with my wife. It's been a rough week to say the least. When she stopped talking to me and said things like "I feel like we will never have the life I envisioned for us" i just felt the worst piercing deep sadness. Something I haven't felt before to this extent. I hurt a lot inside because of the pain and betrayal she must feel. I love her more than anyone and she's my best friend. I realize that she has every right to feel the way she does. It will take time and work but I believe this too shall pass.
I'll write more a bit later. Haven't had much time or mood to write. Thank you all for checking in. When I read all the responses I instantly felt better.
Hey bud. I'm glad you have found the strength within to quit. I'm humbled that my journal helped. Feel free to message me anytime. I'm gonna try to check in more often.