Day 36 Kratom Taper
Good morning all and Happy Thanksgiving! I am feeling ok. I slept 8 hours last night but I did wake up briefly at 2 and 3 am but was able to fall back to sleep. Sitting here on the sofa with my 9 year old son sipping my green tea. I really bumped up the dose of vitamin C and that seems to be helping the AI. I am less tired today. My kratom dose remains at 1.75 tsps. where it will stay until Monday. Slow and steady seems to be working.
JG, Yes, I am glad that I am taking a break. I actually got offered another per diem position yesterday doing home visits for all the old folks here on holiday...easy, mindless money so considering this. For the next few months, our condo is rented and we make a lot of money on this. It will cover my bills for 4 months. The reality is the doctor I work with will need to replace me. He can't get through season without help and this means there may be no job for me to go back to in May. I am a little sad about it and today I wondered to myself if I made the right choice. I just know I am so fucking tired and need a break.
As for my husband, he has been actively looking for a job the last 15 months. There are no jobs for 50 something men. I have watched this erode his self-confidence and push him into a depression. This week through tears he apologized for "letting me down." I have encouraged him to start his own business as he has some fairly unique skills. This week his licenses came through so after the holidays he will begin working on establishing a client base. He already has been contacted by two clients and has work set up for January. So hopefully this will work. We need this to work.
Anyhow, I am off to get to the cooking. Love all you guys! Have a great holiday.