Day 49 End of Day
I am just tired. Today I didn't feel so great. Had withdrawal symptoms and had a very busy practice day plus the university bullshit on top of it. Detox is really, really bad fatigue, persistent nausea, extreme irritability (like I didn't feel like coming here at all which is weird as this place has been my source of support these past nearly 2 months) and wanting to just pull back from everybody, achy legs, restlessness, CRANKY, headache, and just overall generally shitty physical feeling. Tonight I wanted to just go take some kratom. I took more Gralise instead but I am still thinking on the kratom thing. Ugh.
Pain wise I am having a lot of pain, especially down the back of my arm. It is hard to discern what is just my pain and what is pain made worse by the stress of withdraw and my work. Trying to keep my head freaking straight but it is very hard today.
I guess tonight I need support from you guys. Feeling sick and tired and cranky and miserable. Hope you are all doing better. I am sitting here thinking about oxycodone and this is bad...really bad.