Quitting Oxycodone with Loperamide- My story begins... - Part 141

By Jungledog · Dec 12, 2014 · ·
  1. Day 51

    Well, I have been super sick. I am on the second day of simply laying in my bed in my PJs and ignoring the world outside. It looks like I actually have a flu. My daughter is also sick. I really have been feeling super shitty for a few days and thought it was withdraw and it seems it might just be a bad virus. Fever, chills, nausea, achy limbs, my fucking ankle is killing me (yeah I have no fucking clue what THAT is!!! LOL), no appetite...ugh, double ugh. Oh yeah, stuffy sinuses, headache too.

    So I am snuggled up in bed with all my animals (who seem to know Mom is sick and are sitting vigil). I am thinking about all the work I need to get done...which I will need to force myself to do later today...and wishing it would all disappear. I have NO time for this illness shit.

    Detox wise I am doing ok. I haven't used anything. My pain is sucking, per usual. I took my Gralise last night. It helps some. I do think about using kratom but keep talking myself out of it. This whole thing is a great big mindfuck really...just have to keep your head straight and not act on your thoughts. Hard to do but is necessary to change your life.

    Thanks Beach, Mono, Werecat, and LG for the love and support. It is very much appreciated. Love to you all. Keep kicking folks!

Comments

  1. marathonmel7
    Hey JD, sorry to hear you are sick but really happy it's not due to withdrawals. As far as kratom goes, stay the hell away from it. You want to keep moving forward as you have encouraged me in my thread. I am very proud of you. You've done a spectacular job. I'm glad you're getting some rest in bed through. You obviously need it.

    Ive got to run but I just wanted to let you know that I'm still very much a part of your thread, I read everyday and respond when I can. Hang in there. This will all pass!
  2. missparkles
    ^^^ I completely agree with Mel about staying well away from kratom, it might provide short term relief but it can leave you with a long term problem. And the ultimate goal of quitting is not just about non drug use, it's also about becoming emotionally clean too. I never realised until I went into rehab that I not only had an addiction to heroin, I also had an addiction to the physical act of taking pills. It could be opiates, drugs used to treat NSAID (Non Steroidal Anti Inflammatory Disease) even anti diarrhea pills...anything at all as long as it was a pill. And you'll possibly be surprised (I certainly was) at how many people suffer with this problem. I think it's more of a habit than an addiction, very similar to a needle fixation, as in it being connected to an addiction as opposed to being the primary addiction. Having said that I think that both of the above can become the primary addiction when the original addiction is no longer a problem. Does that make as much sense on the page as it does in my head? :s

    Thanks for reading.

    Sparkles. :vibes:
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