Well, I have been super sick. I am on the second day of simply laying in my bed in my PJs and ignoring the world outside. It looks like I actually have a flu. My daughter is also sick. I really have been feeling super shitty for a few days and thought it was withdraw and it seems it might just be a bad virus. Fever, chills, nausea, achy limbs, my fucking ankle is killing me (yeah I have no fucking clue what THAT is!!! LOL), no appetite...ugh, double ugh. Oh yeah, stuffy sinuses, headache too.
So I am snuggled up in bed with all my animals (who seem to know Mom is sick and are sitting vigil). I am thinking about all the work I need to get done...which I will need to force myself to do later today...and wishing it would all disappear. I have NO time for this illness shit.
Detox wise I am doing ok. I haven't used anything. My pain is sucking, per usual. I took my Gralise last night. It helps some. I do think about using kratom but keep talking myself out of it. This whole thing is a great big mindfuck really...just have to keep your head straight and not act on your thoughts. Hard to do but is necessary to change your life.
Thanks Beach, Mono, Werecat, and LG for the love and support. It is very much appreciated. Love to you all. Keep kicking folks!