Thanks for the support. He of course is now doing all he needs to do and is begging me to stay. I have nowhere to go just yet anyhow. We have agreed to go to marriage counseling. My kids know something is up.
I have to get to my practice day all. Physically I am exhausted and it is getting old. Pain wise I hurt. I need to figure out what to do about this. Kratom does take the edge off it and I get no high from it. I am thinking I may use this ONLY if I really need it. It is better than using oxycodone.
Ok off to shower and work. Keep winning all!!! You all know I love you LG, Smith, Mel, Bumble, Bear, Mono, hydroxy, and anyone else my brain dead mind forgot! B