Quitting Oxycodone with Loperamide- My story begins... - Part 153

By Jungledog · Dec 18, 2014 · ·
  1. Bumble,

    No what she meant is to keep your head straight you need to realize that opiates will never provide complete relief from the pain. Chronic pain patients have to realize you can't just take more and more to relieve the pain because relief will never come. The pills can only be used sparingly to reduce the pain not eliminate it. So to simply manage the pain.

    Yes hyperalgesia is an issue. I wondered if I had it but honestly being off of it my pain is worse. I plan to give it a month to see if it will reduce. It sucks. Ok off to work.


  1. BeachWalk
    Would Jaydee's Detox by the Sea serve anything but organic coffee? The thought never entered my mind. ;)
  2. marathonmel7
    "Hemorrhage (In My Hands)"

    Memories are just where you laid them
    Dragging the waters til the depths give up their dead
    What did you expect to find?
    Was it something you left behind?
    Don't you remember anything I said when I said,

    Don't fall away and leave me to myself
    Don't fall away and leave love bleeding in my hands, in my hands again
    And leave love bleeding in my hands, in my hands
    Love lies bleeding

    Oh hold me now I feel contagious
    Am I the only place that you've left to go?
    She cries her life is like
    Some movie in black and white
    Dead actors faking lines, over and over and over again she cries


    And I watched as you turned away
    You don't remember, but I do
    You never even tried

    Don't fall away and leave me to myself
    Don't fall away and leave love bleeding in my hands, in my hands again
    Leave love bleeding in my hands, in my hands again
    Leave love bleeding in my hands, in my hands again, oh
  3. Golddust Woman
    I signing up for your detox....oops I guess there is a long waiting list though. Lol. I think you might really be on to something. To make it affordable for regular people like me, you probably would need substantial federal and state grants. Doesn't appear to me like the good old USA thinks addicts are a priority. I called a detox
    This was their idea of treatment. 3 days inpatient no meds at all (she did say an ambulance would be called if vitals became an issue as there is no doctors on staff). Wow, I told her NO THANKS. This is what our government offers for free. Ha I rather be at home.

    Hope you and everyone else are doing well. I'm hanging in.
  4. supermono
    Thats not a detox centre GW. Thats barbaric. You need a nurse, doc and a shrink minimum. I'm glad you said no.

    I think we need our own island and have our own republic, so we get to make the rules. This planet is run by a bunch of greedy bastards who are completely out of touch with reality. I can build the houses with Bumble but we need a bricky. I cant lay bricks just the carpentry :)
    Peace Mono
  5. Jungledog
    Feeling really down and really exhausted. Getting old. No fucking joy in anything. The holidays seem to be making me feel worse. Thinking I need an antidepressant. Know it isn't normal to wish I could just give up.
  6. lostlygirl
    Sweetie, I'm right there with you. Just remember that this is part of the process. That's what I keep telling myself at least. It makes it a little easier to bear.

    You know I love you, my friend. There will be a rose parade, even if we have to change everything in our lives to get there. We are stronger than these drugs (fuck them), we are stronger than what this crappy world throws at us. We will find our peace.

    lostlygirl added 21 Minutes and 33 Seconds later...

    JD, I swear I feel when you are down, it's a weird connection we have, like we were meant to meet on this thread.

    I have done enough reading/research on brain waves to be convinced that people are just connected, and that our brains transmit and pick up on a lot more than we realize.
  7. Kitts
    Hey JD,

    Sorry you're feeling so bad. Can you slow down and take some time for yourself? I know from reading your posts that you have a lot to take care of. If you can move yourself to the top of that list even for one day it may help your mood and energy. Even if you just take a nap or find some sunshine if that is possible where you live.

    Hang on in there JD. You've come so far. Now might be a good time to reflect on all you've achieved since the start of this journal.

    Sending you love and strength,
  8. Jungledog

    I know. You were off the board. Figured you were isolating. That is what I do when things just get to be too much.

    Just texted my PCP. He is calling in Cymbalta for me. It will take a few weeks to work but hopefully it will help. I have never been this down and it seems to get worse with each passing day.
  9. lostlygirl

    I am going to also send a DM. I have been where you are. It's a bad place to be. It feels like a hopeless place.

    We used these drugs for a reason, and one very powerful reason for me was because I felt stuck. I was searching for a solution that wasn't messy, a solution that didn't affect those I love in a negative way. There were no good answers. I stayed married for everyone else but me.

    But, here's the thing, I couldn't take care of those I love because I wasn't taking care of myself. I wasn't loving myself. (Your post on my thread really hit home. You nailed it). My soul was dying and I was refusing to acknowledge that what I needed was of vital importance for myself. Acknowledging and loving myself meant that everything changed. It must because it couldn't stay the same. I afraid of the consequences of doing so. Fear really it's the mind killer.

    Depression is our souls way of telling us that something is very wrong. It may just be our minds missing the comfort of the drugs, or it may be the underlying reason we started numbing ourselves to begin with. Most likely both. It becomes overwhelming.

    Going off of the drugs forces the issues to the forefront. They become in our face. We are left with looking for good solutions where there may only be hard, messy ones. It may be that decisions will need to be made with the outlook of future better outcomes but with immediately shitty outcomes. We often stay stuck because the decisions that create the very best future outcomes have immediately lousy outcomes. Giving up drugs is a perfect example of this. Nobody would go through this without the promise of infinity better days ahead.

    I feel your pain. I feel your despair. I know this isn't easy. I think cymbalta is a great idea. It will help with the pain as well.

    What do you want? If you had the power to make your perfect life, what would it be?

    Love Love Love
  10. BeachWalk
    ^I'm sorry you're not feeling well JD. This is so typical of what happens when detoxing and all the feelings come bubbling up. Remember lots of those feelings are magnified and distorted which makes it so hard to keep them in perspective. I think an anti-depressant is a good idea. Not sure if you've taken Cymbalta before and if so that's great if it works. I swear by Lexapro.

    Sending hugs....please take care of you.
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